Yeah, love is pain.
Dedicated to all my broken-hearted people.
One's old flame. Just scream my name.
And I'm so sick of love songs.
Yeah, I hate them damn love songs.
Momentos of ours

Late night, you come with the falliing rain my mind begins to stir with the wet memories.
Even if I swear to myself I can live without you.
But I can't help it.
I fill my heart with achohol,
but I still feel empty.
The days without you feel so long.
I beg heaven to please erase you.(It's all a lie.)
Without you I can't smile, tears don't even form.
I don't want to live anymore.
It's wrong, it pisses me off.
I feel like I'm going crazy thinking about you.
I can't see you even if I want to.
It's over, I'll be right there

I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's a lie.I didn't know,
I know now that I need you.
I'm so sorry but I love you.
I said things out of anger and without me knowing I had to let you leave.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.It's all a lie.I'm so sorry, but I love you
I'm so sorry, but I love you.Can I forget it all slowly?
So I can be hurt


The song I put my everything into and sung for you.[People probably don't know.]
Alone, without anyone knowing.Yeah, the lies I made.
I've been left alone, keep roaming with the loneliness.
The note for seperation crumbled in my pocket.Where are you?
The habit of calling you.I want to change.I want to laugh everything over.


Hope everything's a dream.
For being able to do only this.
I still can't forget you.
No, even eventually, even after death.
Has the scar I gave you healed?
I'm sorry for not being able to anything for you

我们相爱就是幸福

If I had to live my life without you near me

The days would all be empty

The nights would seem so long

With you I see forever oh so clearly

I might have been in love before

But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know

They'll take us where we want to go

Hold me now, touch me now

I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy

Our love will lead the way for us

Like a guiding star

I'll be there for you if you should need me

You don't have to change a thing

I love you just the way you are

So come with me and share the view

I'll help you see forever too

Hold me now, touch me now

I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure ofI'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure ofI'll never ask for more than your love.

我

们

相

爱

就

是

幸

福

♥

cso tour 22.11.09 photos

XMii-Kiimo
A.K.A Xiimo

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Here are some of the photos taken during the CSO tournament on the 22/11/09
i had a great time even though we didnt make it coz i didnt take it seriously :).. anyways it was funny ,but the reason i went there wasn't to win nor to lose, i only particitpated just to meet up with the real life cso players and so far i managed to meet up with my friends cso gor gor hihiboy, NeosonBlitzz, Cso-Wangzi,Huahua, Ncjie, xXrainbowXx , Madness-ppl, alonez cool and xmll kiimo aka kamwai..also i managed to met up with one of my clan members xmii-Oiimo
and he was so CUTE xD....
horhor?.. kakaz..
anyways i didnt managed to take photo with my frenz from alonez coz they were buzy aiiiks
bt anyways i will miss them and it was great meeting them in real life

next year i will be participating in the coming tournament and this time i'm not going to go easy even if its a kid..
was nice meet u all :D...
See you guys again in the coming tour
013. 013 . 013 . 013

i don't wanna bother you
but i want you to know
how i feel. . .

Why?.

??

i love you still
do you?

비 통 한

진한 파란색 하늘, 하늘 신선한 공기는, 새 날아가고 나는 시간을 봤다,
1. 2. 3. 4. 5.
나가 이번에를 전부 기다리고 있는 무엇이라고, 마지막으로,
당신의 음성을 들을 것을 당신이 보는 것은,
나머지에 나의 심혼을 놓는 유일한 사람 지금 막 이었다.
i' 나가 당신을 만날 이래로 없어 당신.
우리가 말하기 시작할 이래로 당신 사랑.
시간은 어디로에 갔는가? 저이라고 잊혀진 당신이 있었다?.
또는 다른 소녀를 들어왔다 전망, 당신 이다 나의 없는 수수께끼, 저를 완료하는 것,
colour.i를 가진 나의 생활을 사랑한 당신을, 나 항상 그리는 것 했다. 저에게 돌아오는.

The dark blue sky, the sky fresh air, the birds flew by and i watched the time,
1. 2. 3. 4. 5.
Finally, what i have been waiting for all this time,
was just to see you, to hear your voice the only person that sets my heart at rest. i've been missing you ever since i met you. loving you ever since we started talking. where did the time go to? had you forgotten me?. or did another girl came in view, you are my missing puzzle, the one that completes me, the one that paints my life with colour.i loved you, i always did.
come back to me.. .

the day you left me
the day u stopped talking to me
the day i was all alone
left me talking to my own thoughts

its been 6 months together
-happy moments, but we were living a long distance relationship..
-i missed you, i always thought of you. . .
-Did you feel the same way too?
-you said you were going to come in the late 2 months time.
-i love you
-i need you

its been 5 months apart
-when my eyes are open, tears gather
-when my eyes were closed, they seem to flow down without hesitation
-i cry in my sleep when i dream of you
-i cry when i am awake staring at the ceiling thinking of you
-its been 5 months and i couldn't find you, you didn't even find me.
-but the tears i cried were just air.
-ever since u left, i carried no emotions
-my heart became weak
-whenever i laughed it hurt so much
-because without u i deserved no happiness..
-even now i still love you, why doesn't that feeling change?
-Does yours feel the same?. . . .
-even during the exam, all i could do was think of you you you
-i was waiting for you the whole way.

finally i found you, but i could see that you regained back your heart
did you forget me :)
should i find you?.
-and crash your heart? and trouble you?
or should i just watch from afar
-and see your lovely smile. . .

붙들 것이다 특별한 손을 비치하기 위하여
to have a special hand to hold

나는 나의 손을 온난한 다시 원한다.
i want my hands to be warm again.

당신은 나의 없는 수수께끼이었다
you were my missing puzzle

아기
baby

사랑해요 순전히
i love you so much

저에게 돌아오는
come back to me.

또는 누군가는 하기 위하여 다만 저에게 무엇을 말할 수 있다.
or can someone just tell me what to do. .

생활 등을 맞댄 저를 데려오십시오
bring me back to life

나의 사랑은 언다
my love is frozen

비
통
한

H
E
A
R
T
B
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O
K
E
N

xiimoisafool.☺

xiimo's 마지막.

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m a z e 미로 . .

Three blind mice as we're lost in the maze route, lookin' for the easiest possible way out.
Day in and day out, you run into a closed road. turning into old folk, chasing after rose gold.
What they don't know is that it belongs to a fool.
Choosing wants over needs, singing songs of a mule.
Carrying their burdens when you barely know the person,
And that is the difference between a pharaoh and a servant.
I choose to serve no man no one.
At the same time avoiding all of earth's landmines.
You step in it and you blow up,
You exit or you grow up, or get locked up.
The pigs catch ya eating donuts.
But i'd rather rhyme bars than sit behind bars.
How can a prison cell contain this shining bright star.
They have no idea what i could do in a minute's time.
Break down the walls of the maze and run through the finish line.

Life is like a maze... when i'm flippin through the pages.

It's high definition black and white.
Is it digital, analog, wack or tight?
It's stressful wishing sacrifice, and the list goes on. it's the facts of life.
East coast ettiquite, west coast slang.
Peace we'll never get if shit don't change.
Do you play with the majors or go independent?
Gotta stay paid but i'm broke like a peasant.
Love, sex, greed, addictions. what's next?
Need directions. there's nobody left to follow.
Wallow in my sorrow for a hollow tomorrow.
Life is like a maze, try to keep track of the days that take us from place to place.
Awaken and face-to-face.
Too many choices, possibilities, indecision is killing me.
And if you lend a helping hand, then i will follow willingly

Flip through fashion magazines, cop a swag or lean.
When nothing's goin 'smooth', rub a little vaseline.
Do an online, offline, frontline search. either quench or confine your columbine thirst. cuz you wanna fit in...
And find a perfect 'match' to set your heart in flames. you wanna be a catch.
Catch-22, catch the flu, catchphrase.
By any means necessary in this rat's maze.
It's a black haze muddle, a rainy day puddle...
Life is gonna wet ya, get ya in a muzzle.
A struggle to survive, a huddle nine to five with no quarterback.
Change? you won't even get a quarter back.
It's a murder fact, reality kills. call your doctor now for your reality pills.
Chill, but still worry... a bug's goin' around.
Cuz life is like your homie, it's 'holdin' u down'.

☻Xiimo

부서지는 미소

This emptiness is eating me up alive
This guilt is ripping me up to bits
This despair and sadness is driving me insane
This hope i always believed in just sank like a paper boat

never thought that i would fall in love
as it all started from just a simple crush
as i thought i could find someone ,
a guy i could trust, but i guess that wasn't enough
Bitter and sweet,
that is how its supposed to be.

From day to day,
night to night,
my hands were never warm
but remained icy cold.

my smile was never sincere,
my smile never reasoned anymore
its just something i plaster on to hide this emptiness
my eyes lost its sight to the one who broke my heart
my hearings became deaf , as your sweet voice pierces it with lies and betrayal
my dreams, my hopes shattered like a broken tea cup only revealing the spilled mess
my heart became black and was stripped away of emotions and reasons
now i remain a defect, an unfinished experiment , an unwanted substance
A Puzzle that has lost its missing piece. .

To love
is to either break someone's heart
or get yours broken; badly

not to love
is to either feel empty but safe
or to envy others.

as i looked backed into my past memories
i have noticed i had broken so many's heart
due to the insufficient time i can spend with them
long distance, too busy, or either i got cheated..
remaining and standing as a solo
u share no pain with anyone else but bears with it alone

for this i will go all the way around.

after work, it was around 12am i supposed?
i was dead tired yet i needed to take a stroll and inhale in fresh air.
it wasn't cold it was warm.
but i was always feeling icy cold.
even under the hot beating sun. as my friends lay a finger on me.
they jerk off and said i just came out from a freezer.
as i walked to the park
i sat on the swing
it was dark and gloomy with just a pinch of dark blue liight.
i stared up and settled my eyes at the sky
isn't it nice and vast, i wish i could settle myself in the dark
i won't have to hide because i can't be seen anymore.
i ziipped up my hoodie and took my hands out from my pocket and looked at my palms
they were pale like white and icy cold. i do not get it. .
its so warm yet i am so cold, yet i get constant fevers.
and when i laugh. my heart aches, like i do not deserve to laugh
i stared back into the dark sky and i say a big glitter,
a star. . its so rare to see in KL .. The city of Mirror, the city of heat. The city of light
where there is no night. .
lovely.
a star that every kid wishes upon on.
i closed my eyes and made a wish.
i wished my brother Frank would suceed in life
i wished my existense was never true.
i want to dissapear.

as i close my eyes i see nothing but pain
pain directed to smiles
The stress the pressure. everyone giving to me
i can take it. is that enough?..
my limit is coming near.
i wish to dissapear soon.


i wish i was blind
i wouldn't have to see the sufferings brought to my sights

i wish i was death
all these arguements screams and hurtful words wont be brought to my ears

i wish i couldn't talk
i can shut Up the whole life till the day it comes i close my eyes; forever

i wish i was senseless
when They beat me, The bullies , my parents i wouldn't feel a thing .
i would just bleed and die without pain


i owe many apologies to so many people
to the ones i have hurt.
but haven't you thought that before it was my doing
u started and ignited the fire first?
u caused me double damage.
now i'm broken.

이 손은 얼음 감기이다. 붙들기 위하여 누구의 손이 의미되었는가?

부서지는 미소
Broken Smiiles

Xiimo

i miss u ...

i lay on my bed
questioning my thoughts and answers
reliving my past years memories
then it hit me.

and image that flashed back in my mind
as tears flowed down..
i wondered and asked

how are you
how is it like up there?
when will you come back
why was life so short for you
why did you had to go
do you miss us?
we are all waiting..
for the chance to reunite again..

****

it was around 8pm-10pm if i wasn't mistaken
me and my brother , Frank was watching dvd's like we did everyday.
it was then we got a call. My brother took a look at the caller id , its ****** he whispered to me and answered it.

HE FUCKING JUMPED OFF!
i..i..ii... i told him SHIT.
SHIT. i told him to come down. IT WAS RAINING FRANK.
HE SLIPPED..and he jumped of THE FUCKING 16th FLOOR!

whoa whao.. what HAPPENED?
WHO?

Aaron.
He jumped of the fucking 16th floor..
He slipped n FELL!.
Shyt Shyt..

Aaron??!!!..

*Click
- as i heard his name. everything hit me like a big yellow school bus. i was speecless . so was my brother.
-That very night. me and my brother lost a dear friend and a brother.

i remembered..
just the other week
he called me up saying its been a long time we went out for supper
and he also told me he was in kl
unfortunately this incident happened.
i laid in bed crying . .
why of all person you . .

you were always there to cheer us up
you were always the first to greet us happy birthday.
you were always the reason why we never got down

ur unfortunate event happened on her little's brothers birthday
we shared the same birthday..
i will always remember you
even till now
i still remember all the happy moments we cherished together with me n my bro
the bowl of kolo mee we would chump down :D

how are you up there ..
We all miss u dear..
its been 6 months already. . .
someday we will all reunite. . .
then we will go and hang around and eat some ko lo mee.
i miss u Aaron Teo kor..

Eleanore too...

i was just wondering one thing

why of all people you?...


Forever in our Hearts
and memoriies






A A R O N T E O
♥